Though there have been many debates over when women hit their sexual peak, I can honestly say that I’m most definitely approaching mine. Not even gonna lie: I’ve been a complete hornball lately. Which isn’t to say that my libido suffered in years past, but there is a sexual reawakening going on, and I’m not sure if it has to do with the fact that I feel better in my own skin now than I ever have or because sex isn’t limited to the same guy, day in and day out. But I’ll take it, whatever the hell this is.
Lately I’ve been lusting after someone in a way I almost don’t even recognize because I don’t remember feeling such strong impulses. But in my daydreams, we kiss passionately in a dark alley; I press up against him in an elevator, my legs wrapped around his lower torso; and we lie naked in an unmade bed. This is just the kind of thing I need right now. Nothing complicated; just a good old-fashioned love fest.
Years of a harmless friendship have matured into one sexy email exchange after another and I find myself typing, giggling, blushing, and biting my lip all at once. I can’t believe what we write to each other, and yet, I feel no regret when I hit “send.” I just hope I can hold on to this feeling for a while, before things get too complicated. We’ve been walking a fine line for months and though the urge to sleep together is intoxicating and overwhelming, I know that I’ll miss THIS when we do.
But I don’t want this to be all there is either.
I feel determined to have wild and steamy sex with him though there are some factors that should prohibit it from happening in the first place (and to protect his anonymity, I’d prefer to not reveal too much information. Though it’s not the brief fling I mentioned here and here). I don’t want to think about the consequences; I just want to see where we can take this. And if the sex would even live up to the expectation.
What an exciting place you are in! I haven’t been with anyone since my last bad breakup, almost a year ago, and I’m ready ready ready now. Gettin’ lonely on top of hot around here, but so disappointed in my choices out there, so haven’t done much about it. A date or 2, but no one worth more than a date. I am not without hope!
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I’ll be watching to see what you decide to do.
SO nice to meet you, and thank you for your wonderful comments. Connections like this are what keep me going, and fuel me. I’ll tell you, my life changed when I began blogging. I always have a friend now. I wish I had had this when I first stayed home with my children and was beyond lonely.
Thank you, again, for your encouragement. Thank you.
Sounds like fun. My ex and I used to send those kind of emails. J’s really more reserved and I kind of miss being naughty like that sometimes. Enjoy it and keep us posted.
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Reading your post is more interesting than reading a tawdry romance novel!
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I’m so glad you’re living out your desires! Kudos to you. So much better than denying yourself and thinking what if for the rest of your life.
Oh how fun and exciting! I think I’m pretty lucky in that I feel that way about my hubs.
This was HOT and STEAMY! I feel excited for you! I remember that time in my life when sex was a fling, uncomplicated and I think every woman needs to feel this way at some point during their life. I can honestly say sex is still fantastic 10 years in and for that I am grateful…now I need to text my hubby to hurry home. 😉
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PSST…THAT is the sound of a finger touching the hot steamy passion happening here. Also I am sorry for interrupting.
Please carry on.
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I remember those feelings, how exciting and fun! I love how open and honest you are, so much fun reading your posts. Look forward to seeing where this goes 🙂
As an “old married” I’ll just live vicariously through your rollicking adventures *sigh*
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My gut instinct is that with *that* much expectation, it’s unlikely to live up to your imagination. But maybe I’m just being unduly cynical… it’s not like I have a mass of experience in these things (never having had sex outside of engagement/marriage for starters). However in general, imagination/fantasy can be perfect in a way that real life can’t.
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I can feel the excitement, oh how I miss being in that position! Enjoy…
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The dream world should be better then real life (that why guys set the bar low early for you girls), but you have to try it, maybe the guy can out perform your dreams. And the security guards will love checking out the make out session in the elevator.
I am sure the guy is getting the same enjoyment communicating with you and is also have the same dreams you are having. Go for it! Worse case scenario is either a broken heart (probably it will be you breaking this guy’s heart) or just disappointment.
VIVA LA LIBIDO!
Unfortunately pregnancy has stolen my libido 🙁 Those were the days!!
i love this post. My sexual history consisted of ” that was good right?” and me experience with satisfaction… was able to count four in twelve years. recently i have had four in the space of an afternoon. mind blowing omg, unbeliveable, not a trace of self consciousness, guilt, nothing. and in the cheez balliest hotels you can imagine. I say live. feel. express. enjoy your body. it is an amazing thing. I can’t believe it took me this long, but shit it has been worth it. my toes and hair are curling!