Happy happy weekend, you guys 🙂 How was your week, and what’s on tap for this weekend/Mother’s Day? I’m not sure I have anything crazy planned–likely a brunch with Bryan’s family outdoors and maybe a farm. And maybe I’ll get that long-awaited manicure I’ve promised myself forever. We can always hope 🙂 

• My friend had her baby! She’s one of my dearest and so damn deserving of this moment and I can’t even put in words how happy I am for her. I obsessively checked my phone until I got the update <3 Her baby is beautiful!!
• Stealing away for a Goodwill trip; I made some purchases. Did I need this adorable houndstooth bag or tiny wall hanging? Absolutely not. But lord I haven’t had an impulse buy in I don’t even know how long and it felt GOOD!
  
• My mom comes by once a week and Mil was in a much better mood this week (she was out of sorts last week because of teething and crankiness following her 1-year appointment, poor pumpkin)
• Car drives and beautiful scenery in my hometown
  
• Booking a getaway with my friend! We are going to Lake Hopatcong; it’s a hop-skip-and-jump from where I live now but our stay is lakefront and next to a TexMex restaurant and I am so excited! I can’t wait for Mila to bond with her auntie!
• Meeting Bryan’s sister’s new puppy Sawyer! OMG, he’s adorable
  
• Bryan getting dose 1 of Moderna
• Staying more present, in life and with my family

Welcome to the weekend, you guys. I dunno about you, but it was a long and never-ending week and I am happy today is Friday. Without much 

• Nights outside alone with the supermoon
• Mila slowly starting to feel like herself again
• Time at the lake
  
  
• Texts with my cousin (sometimes only family can understand family things)
• Treating myself to some wonderful Etsy finds in time for Mother’s Day–I’ll share them when they are in <3
• Getting my first Thrive Market box! 
  
• Related: asking Bryan to run out for milk which led to him discovering that Whole Foods delivers to our area in two hours and GUYS. ENOUGH WITH THE DELIVERY or I’ll never have a reason to leave the house again. But also, isn’t it great to have these conveniences??
• Spring, springing
  

Good afternoon, my sweet ones. I haven’t done a Currently list in a while. I’m not sure I have much to say, but it feels good to blog when the spirit moves me. Or when I feel like I haven’t dusted off this page in a while, whichever comes first 😉 

Thinking: about the day ahead and what’s on the plate. I have a buttload of work to do, want to go to our clubhouse to register for a garage sale, maybe hit up Aldi, bake some muffins for Mila 

Enjoying: the peace and quiet. Mila and Milo are napping and I can dive into emails, uninterrupted

Feeling: hopeful. Curious. Anxious. Tired and exhausted by life and the news. It’s a full spectrum of emotions

Wearing: red maternity shirt (shhhh lol) gifted to me by my friend, black tights, long mustard-colored duster, hair in a topknot

Needing: baby girl to feel better. She has been “off” lately and I’m not sure what’s going on; I think she really succumbed to the chickenpox vaccine, but she’s still fussy and not feeling well and it’s hurting my heart 

Wanting: more coffee

Listening: to the quiet hum of the computer, the birds outside

Making: plans for vacations and boarding and also trying to get a painter in here and figure out when I can get an oil change and a haircut. I’m not sure I answered this question correctly today, lol

Eating: just finished muesli with almond milk and already considering my next feeding

Drinking: water. BORING! Definitely need more coffee though. Have I mentioned that?

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It has been a long week, you guys. Work has been insane, poor little Mila came down with a fever after her chicken pox vaccine last week, I had to bust out my winter coat again (what is going on with this weather??), and I am just ready to welcome this weekend with open arms. Let’s dive in and share some happy thoughts for the week, shall we??

• My snuggly little Mila. Of course I’d much rather she were feeling better but I love the epic snuggle fests Bryan and I have had with her lately
• Treating myself to a Starbucks run
  
• Getting my first vaccination dose! I am so incredibly impressed by how efficiently it was run. I was in and out in exactly one hour
• Long overdue chat with my bestie
• Banana bread. So what if I made two of them this week?
  
• Clean house
• This playpen we just set up for Mila; can’t wait to use it at the lake/beach this summer! 
  
• Finishing The Serpent on Netflix (omg. Go and watch!!)
• Finding the cutest Mother’s Day gifts this year
• No. More. Pumping. I had my last session this week and can’t say that I miss it 🙂 

Hey, you guys, and happy weekend. The sun is shining, I have my lucky “Adopt” pit bull sweatshirt on, and I’m eating a bowl of muesli (thanks, Aldi!). Plus, it’s Friday. This week has been exhausting and I didn’t get the greatest news this morning, but I won’t allow that to tarnish the rest of the day/this weekend that I have worked HARD for. Let’s dive into the things that made me happy this week and let me know what’s on tap this weekend in the comments! 

• I was interviewed by my friend’s 8th grade class this week. It was a career discussion and I told everyone what influencer marketing meant and they asked a lot of questions about Nas X and the sneaker collab which I had nothing to do with but it made me laugh anyway!
• Thinking outside the box to get the company I work with up and running again. Things have been slow and I panic but hoping they turn around soon
• A great zoom call with a talent agency
• Instacart food pickup. I ordered online because I had a birthday discount and Bryan picked up all the things from Wegmans. SO easy! 
• Beautiful sunny days
• Lots of walks, including one with my mom when she came to watch Mila
• Mila’s one-year well visit is out of the way. I stress out about going to the pediatrician so much–especially with all those big shots and her tiny body. It breaks me and she sniffled a lot in the car and it broke my heart 🙁 
• Getting Mila’s first birthday photos back from a photographer at the lake 
• Narrowing down our choices for a mini weekend getaway shortly

Going to hop but hope to hear from you and sending you all lots of love and sunshine as we head into the weekend. XOXO

One day I’m going to want to remember this time. I keep having to remind myself of that, though some days I can’t believe this weird apocalyptic shit that happens in the news on the regular. As fucked up as it was, 2020 was the year I gave birth to my beautiful rainbow baby Mila, and for that I will always remain eternally grateful. I don’t often reflect on that time and those early days which were monumental and life-changing in every way imaginable. I’m not sure there’s a deeper meaning here aside from the fact that time in a Covid world is slipping through my fingers quickly and life hasn’t let up since March of last year when it all shut down.

The first few days and weeks and months of Mila will forever remain a blur—a whirlwind of sleepless nights, the late-night glow of the tv, coffee, adrenaline, diaper changes, and worrying about whether baby is breathing and warm enough. I regret that I didn’t pause more to breathe in the smell of her newness in April, that I didn’t stop to admire her delicate fingers in May, and boop her cute button nose that is definitely not from me in June, when her features slowly changed forever.

But you can’t and that’s the whole point, isn’t it? The bright hues and colors of a sunset, the nighttime breezes that make our hair dance, the deep belly laughs you can only share with the best company… the impermanence of all of these moments is what adds to their allure. I think often about how we never appreciated the things we were taking for granted pre-pandemic because they were always there, right in front of us—the restaurants and bars and loud gatherings and holidays and concerts.

And then they were gone like they never existed and we were left to collectively mourn their memories.

What will become of us? Of these strange moments in time? WHEN WILL IT ALL BE NORMAL AGAIN? Sometimes my anxiety-filled brain can’t handle these unknowns.

Slowly life shifts again. And I teeter on the edge of careless and free while tethered to a darker reality. That “normal” might not be within reach for a while. Maybe “normal” will never be. Or maybe “normal” is what we make of it. Maybe our definition of “normal” will change like we all have over the past year.

And maybe that’s all we can hope for.

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