“I’m floating in the blimp a lot
I feel the feeling I forgot
Swimming weightless in the womb
Bouncing gently round the room
In a minute I’ll be free
And we’ll be splashing in the sea”
For the first time in a long time I feel all of those things, especially that line about the feelings I forgot. That song, by the way, is “Free” by Phish. It’s fantastic and one of my favorites to hear live and you should go and give it a listen right now. I’ll wait 🙂
Hope springs eternal. Life has new meaning. Things are looking all the way up lately. This morning I got a notice from Facebook that our clubhouse is lifting its mask mandate. It feels weird but also… I’m ready. I think we all are. We’re vaccinated (well, Bryan is half-vaxed, and going in for his second dose next week), but we’re almost all there.
This past Friday, Bryan and I enjoyed our first meal together–outside, somewhere!–as a family, just the three of us. We went to a place called the Rockaway River Barn which is legit up the road and we could prob see our house from the parking lot but WHO CARES. It felt like one of the most normal things we’ve done in a long time and I can’t even describe how happy the experience made me. Bryan joked that “now he’s good for the next six months” (homeboy is seriously thriving during this pandemic, lol) but I’d like to think he was kidding and this will slowly be our new normal. Not feeling so damn anxious all the time. Fully able to enjoy life again. Spending time with our loved ones.
Here are some not-so-great-quality photos of that night that make me so, so happy to look at <3 Also Bryan very strongly dislikes having his photo taken and probably that hates the last pic but Mila’s little face is so cute so he can suck it lol. How are you, sweet ones?