I can’t remember the last time I felt so optimistic about a new year. For the most part, 2018 had some incredible moments. After years of fruitless searching and getting outbid, Bryan and I finally purchased and settled into our home in a beautiful corner of New Jersey, a stone’s throw from a lake, parks, cute restaurants, shopping, and a Target (ha!). I walked alongside my anxiety, keeping pace and starting to understand it’s meaning and significance in my life. I saw one of my closest friends get married, and welcomed a baby into our circle of friends.
But like all things in life, 2018 presented its share of challenges. I felt my body miscarry a baby and I carried that guilt with me like an albatross. Surgery to remove fibroids left me out of commission for weeks and I had a harder time with recovery than I thought I would. I lost a few friendships in a billowing cloud of “what the fuckery.” All teachable moments.
That said, I am very ready for this new year.
My word for 2018 was ACCEPTANCE, and I struggled deeply with that, beginning in September and stretching well into the cold, winter months. I want to stay along the same course, however, and get back what I lost because I believe this will be a much better year and I’m excited for what’s in store. Travel. Marriage. Adding to our little family (either with a human child or a fur friend—I’d love to make this the year we return to fostering!). To borrow Beth’s word from last year, my word of 2019 is NOURISH. Defined as “provid[ing] the food or other substances necessary for growth, health, and good condition.”
It’s time to nourish mind, body, and soul. Moving forward, I will ask myself the following questions with decisions that I make in life—both big and small.
Does it make me happy/bring me joy?
Will it enrich my life—mentally, emotionally, spiritually, and/or physically?
Do I feel a sense of obligation by saying “yes”?
Do you have a word of the year? Let me know in the comments, and happy happy New Year to you all, my friends!
Also special thanks to Christina for this pic <3 <3 <3