New here? Welcome! I documented part one of my fun-filled fertility journey here in case you’d like to dip into the archives to see what led us to this place today, here and now.
Of all the life advice I’ve heard over the years, I think the phrase “it’ll happen when you least expect it” might be my least favorite. I hear this often when people ask about my journey through infertility (because that’s really what it is—you careen through it with the grace of a bull in a china shop and either end up on the side of Pregnant OR you float in the ether of Never-Having-a-Baby Land).
Stop thinking about it, Charlotte, and it will come.
Right. Like having a baby is something I can easily suppress and shove into the back corners of my mind to focus on other more important, more pressing things in life.
WHAT COULD POSSIBLY BE MORE IMPORTANT?!
Tell someone to stop thinking about something, and they’ll obsess about it instead, and yes, of course I’m speaking from personal experience here. Hi, I’m neurotic and a giant ball of wire with big hair. Have we met?
But let’s back the truck up for a moment.
That phrase about it happening when you least expect it—miraculously, it does! I’ve seen it so, so many times with my own jaded blue eyes. I hate to say this, but I believe that’s what makes this process even more disheartening, because inevitably I start playing the comparison game.
I have a friend who tried for six years to conceive, started going through the adoption process, and was in the “almost bringing home baby” stages when BOOM! She’s pregnant. And another who said she never wanted a baby until we sat down in a diner and she showed me an ultrasound pic. We had just been talking about her dog eating socks, so I thought “oh, this must be an x-ray of his tummy” (that still makes me laugh, also, SORRY FRIEND!).
The stories continue.
Like part one of my fertility follies, I’m not sure this post has a point or that it solves a great purpose. But I find it’s cathartic to write when the waves start crashing in again.
And so, that’s what I’ll continue to do <3