I think I’m going to stop pressuring myself to post on Mondays because I can’t ever get my shizz together in time. Plus, it’s always better to man up and admit to shortcomings than feel disappointment every Tuesday. I’m also in the thick of another writing rut which is always fun and prompts simply aren’t helping.
Let’s just pretend it’s Thursday and the weekend is just on the horizon, shall we?
Speaking of weekends, it was a good one—sushi with old friends, a rainy night in with Bryan and Minions, benefit dinner for rescue animals sponsored by Canine Sanctuary (follow them on Facebook!). It was totally worth the absolutely terrifying ride through a cloud of thick, white fog.
As Bryan and I made our way over the valley and through the woods on Sunday, through every type of weather pattern imaginable (we even got a rainbow!), I sat pensively (and perhaps white knuckled for at least part of the journey). I’ve had a lot of noise in my life–and especially in my head–over the past few weeks and am determined to hit the reset button on a few things.
My anxiety has been getting much, much worse.
The pressure to meet expectations sometimes feels insurmountable.
Good intentions don’t always come across to me in perhaps the innocuous way that they should.
Sometimes I wonder what comes first—are my knee jerk reactions a result of my anxiety, or are they triggered because of a line of questioning that then makes me question?
Here’s the rub—people will always have an opinion about the way you live your life, and on some days, it’s easy to distinguish your own gentle hum from the cacophony of friends and family in the background.
But when your noise is overshadowed by the opinions of others, it’s time to sit in your truth, in stillness and perfect silence.
More to come soon, my sweet ones. I hope you are all having a wonderful week <3 <3 <3