I have decided to stop apologizing in the beginning of each post for my haphazard blogging schedule. Sometimes I just want to enjoy the summer, too, and there’s no reason to think anyone is expecting anything of me. All I want lately is to spend my time outdoors, as I imagine you are all doing as well. (Though I hope temperatures in your neck of the woods have been considerably cooler than they’ve been on the northeast lately.)
Life has been fun, spontaneous, and filled with adventures–and new prospects–lately. I’m excited to soak it all in. I was able to see two nights of Phish for July 3rd and 4th this year and had the chance to catch up with some old friends I hadn’t seen since last tour as well as some college buddies who are either married, have children, or have kids on the way. I understand that life changes and it isn’t as easy for us all to gather together as we once did. But just because priorities aren’t what they once were, doesn’t mean that we don’t revel in what is when we do get to enjoy time together. Pregaming in the parking lot with a deck of Uno cards, some beach chairs, and good friends feels just as sweet as it did when I was 20.
I took a walk today to a corner of Hoboken mere blocks from my apartment in an area I had never ventured to. I was excited to listen to some meditation podcasts I hadn’t heard in a while because I felt a pull all week in many different directions and I needed to decompress. I wanted to forget. To relax. To not worry. To just be.
I stumbled upon an open space just outside of the light rail stop and found the perfect place for some mindful breathing. I couldn’t believe this sculpture garden was here this entire time and I never thought to come by in all my years of wondering where I could go for some quiet meditation. Much as I have come to enjoy limited time spent with friends who lead lives ruled by diaper changes and nap times, I am finding new ways to appreciate the here and now.
A few months ago, I would have waited until my scheduled morning post time to hit publish. But there’s no reason for that. I decided that I feel like posting this now, at 10pm, and so, hit publish I will. I don’t want to live my life according to someone else’s expectations and I’ll be damned if I allow my own to cloud my ability to enjoy the beauty that lies in the shadows, undetected by the naked eye.
I am a semi-finalist in the Vogue American Beauty contest (I know, it’s blowing my mind, too)! You can vote as many times as you like until July 23rd. Please mention me if you share or tweet about it so I can thank you individually!